Sunday, November 22, 2009
Hi. Personal post here but maybe it will encourage some people.
I'm fat. I weigh 94kg and according to my secondary school record book, i'm severely overweight. I've been told to lose weight by doctor after doctor. It's not for me to look good, it's to make life easier for me. I have high-risk of diabetes and high blood pressure. There's history of both in my family. My grandma has hbp, my dad has slight hypertension.
Yesterday, i was reminded by the doctor again, that i have to lose weight or else sooner or later i will get it. The dark patch of skin on the back of my neck is a sign of diabetes. I've also had some symptoms such as blurred vision. I felt defeated. Seriously crushed. I went on my blog just now and typed out a whole long post complaining about everything but by the time i typed the second sentence, i got silenced by this verse.
But the fact is, it was our pains he carried—
our disfigurements, all the things wrong with us.
We thought he brought it on himself,
that God was punishing him for his own failures.
But it was our sins that did that to him,
that ripped and tore and crushed him—our sins!
He took the punishment, and that made us whole.
Through his bruises we get healed.
We're all like sheep who've wandered off and gotten lost.
We've all done our own thing, gone our own way.
And God has piled all our sins, everything we've done wrong,
on him, on him.
- Isaiah 53:4-5 (The Message)
Amen. Amen. Amen.
Another version says, by HIS stripes, we are healed.
Alot of times, we claim that Jesus is our almighty God. We claim that our God is Jehovah-rapha, our healing God. But do we really believe it? How many times do we actually sit still and completely throw our trust into God's hands?
That's about health and healing. But this verse goes even deeper. Sin. Everybody struggles, everybody has their temptations. But what power does temptation have over us? He bore our sins, He took the blame, He carried the cross, He felt the sting of the whip. All so that we didn't have to. All because He knew, we are too fragile to experience it. And all because He loves us.
Jesus,
come sickness or pain, i want to be used by You.
come persecutions or trials, i want to be by Your side.
come what may Lord, i want to love You.
come what may.
Amen, amen, amen.
Zealot.ones ended @ 10:43 PM
